Below are the 9 most recent journal entries recorded in tonya simonds' LiveJournal:

Tuesday, January 30th, 2001
1:33 pm	hey hey i havent written for a few days now. i have been busy and all. theres not really that much to say anymore. i have been hurt so much lately and thats all. i dunno what to say or do anymore. my life has changed so much in the past month. it has been really cold out lately. my best freinds grandfather died yesterday. i feel really bad because she didnt know it was coming. nobody did at that fact anyway. i guess michele is mad at me now. i have no clue why but i guess thats ok. i cant say or do anything to change her mind about it. it just pisses me off that things like this happen all the time. i never do anything thta i ever know of. well theres not much more to say today so i will write again in a few days i suppose..lata all (Comment on this)
Saturday, January 27th, 2001
10:23 am	shoot me god damn it. shit is going on again between me and michele. i dont know if what is going on is true or what. sheila oms me on msn and asks me if michele is my gf and yea as far as i know she is. then she tells me that she is with michele her self too. so damn i have no clue what the hell is going on now. i would call her but for two reasons i wont. 1 cant find her number again and 2 she is most likely sleeping anyway. i found this out and cried for hours. theres nothing that i can do. i love michele and would do anything for her and to be with her. i have no clue what is going ot happen with me and her. have no damn clue! (Comment on this)
Friday, January 26th, 2001
9:19 am	dunno i am in school. i took an exam who knows how i did. anyway i know i didnt write that much yesterday and i am going to make up for it today. yesterday i talked to michele all day. it was great. i got the sweetest email from her also. i almost cried. well shit is going on at home now. my mom smokes again damn her, but if i smoke i will get kicked out. which is so not fair. i guess my step dad is moving out soon,i dont really care but there getting a divorce and shit so who knows what will become of me and my mom. she thinks that we could lose dylan. but she never did anything wrong. and i guess he has been saving money for a few years and shit. mom said if he wants to play like that then she will take him for all hes worth. im not really that worried becuz there are things going on with me anyway. but i dont feel like talking about it anyway so i am not going to. i havent said i love michele yet...I LOVE MICHELE! always will too! well damn im gonna go now and write an email to my baby girl love ya (Comment on this)
Thursday, January 25th, 2001
2:38 pm	sorry i havent written in such a long time....i am so much in love with michele. im hungry damn it! i guess i should eat huh. yea i will. this is going to be short and all...i just wanted to write about how much i love her!!!!!!!!!! (Comment on this)
Saturday, January 20th, 2001
12:18 pm	life fuckin sucks fucking life sux so damn much!!!supposibly michele is goin out with some othat girl.what the fuck!life is so not fair.i hope to hell that its not true damn it..i am so damn pissed off i could break something!!grrrrr!!!!i am so in love with her and wat tha fuck is up with all this shit im heraing damn it..i know if its not true at all i dont want her talking to my friends anymore just kelsey damn it!i am so damn pissed off...im gonna go to bed and sleep it off after A few drinks i guess...lata (Comment on this)
Friday, January 19th, 2001
9:19 am	money well man i sat down and figured out how much money i wll exactly need to see chel...almost $800!!i have it and all but damn thats a lot of cash.but it will be worth it and all..for my babe.i love her sooo much and im not gonna write about her anymore...if i can help it that is!i was talkin to her firned april 2day.she seems very nice.shes cool.i havent talked to jay now for a few days i dunno whats up with that..hes a cool kid.i have alot to say tonite but its all about chel....i love her so much!!!!kelsey is all upset about kent moving away.they are so damn cute together i really wish that he could stay here and all so she can be happy.shes like the best thing for him and all and she loves him so damn much.they were like meant to be together i swear.i know how she feels it happened to me last yeaar to my girl carrie she lived far away and damn we made it work at all costs..but it wasnt working after a while because of complications due to me losing interest that is..and now i am extremely happy with the girl i have now..diana michele..shes my girl damn it and dont anyone be gettin any damn ides!! (Comment on this)
Thursday, January 18th, 2001
6:44 am	michele hey what up?well i didnt go to school today because i just didnt wanna go really.i talked to my girl most of the day after i woke up at 10.we talked on the phone for like an hour and shit but then i talked to her on my comp for an hour too.man i love her so damn much.theres no way that i can really express my feelings for her.i know i love her but it just feels like there is more to it.and well i have no clue what this feeling is.ughh i love her so damn much.she is so damn wonderful for me.she cares about me and loves me.she says that she has completely fallen for me. i asked her why and she says its just something about me. i mean i dont think that i am that great or anything.but hey as long as she loves me.man i love her and cant even stop talking or writing about her.damn.well im gonna go so yall dont think im crazy.see im talking like her now.damn..later love tonya (Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 17th, 2001
1:16 am	blah today sucks cock.i am sick as hell.i cant sleep at all.some 24 year old chick in pa likes me now. why the hell does everyone have to like me now all of a sudden when i found the girl that i want all these girls are after me?i dunno what to about it at all.im not gonna cheat on michele or anything like that cuz its morally wrong but not only that but i love her and would never do anything like that to hurt her.my girl mens more to me than my words can say.shes just so wonderful.i would anything for her.she has this way of driving me crazy.its just hard to explain how i feel about her.like i started writing this pissed off and now that i thought of her i am happy still.told you she drives me crazy!well im going back to bed now..i have been sleeping most of the day. peace out homies (Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 16th, 2001
9:12 am	life blows hey its me tonya. i am so in love with michele that i am so cinfused. i love her and all but what if it doesnt click when we meet? i love her so much and i dunno man.shes jsut so wonderful for me.i think that she is very pretty and she is very smart and man she is everything that i need in my life. my mom thinks i am just all confused and i dont like girls but damn its my life i do know what i want.and that is to be with another woman and die in love with a woman. i am just all upset becaus emy friends say im a chump you treat michele all wrong. and damn i do not treat her wrong or atlease i dont think that i do.do i?nahh i dont think so.well im doin soemthing tointe so this wasnt that long at all i just wanted to say how i was feeling right now.later (Comment on this)